So, it’s been awhile since I’ve written, but I’m hoping to be more diligent about sharing a bits and pieces of our life on here more regularly.
Currently, our family is in the middle of a fun fast. I say that, because for the first time ever, I think I’m really enjoying doing a church-wide fast. I usually groan and complain [the opposite of what you’re supposed to do, but as usual, I’m just being honest about how I am] and don’t spend near as much time with God as I should. I usually get frustrated that I’m not getting to eat what I want and ultimately, am pretty good at having a bad attitude and defeating the purpose of why I’m fasting to begin with. Not this time. I’ve really felt like this was just the right push I needed to start 2013 for myself and for our family. We’ve been praying about the following, if you’d like to pray with or for us:
- Deeper intimacy individually, as a couple, and as a family with Jesus. It just seems that having a baby throws off life enough to lose a lot of the romance and excitement in knowing and spending time with God. Just like marriage, it’s easy to get rundown and distracted by the day-to-day redundancies of having a new baby and I personally just wanted a little bit of a new start.
- Deeper intimacy in our marriage. Like I said, it’s just easy to not prioritize because well, there’s *a lot* going on, even if it doesn’t feel like much is being accomplished. I want us to try to do better about finding and adding a little romance to our days and ending each night with prayer together. After hearing a pastor say that was key to his 37-year-long marriage, I figured it was worth committing to for what is our 4th year together as a married couple.
- Finances. We’ve been praying a lot about increase in our bank account and whether or not we should consider doing more photography, if I should do something part-time at night, or if Mike would do something to supplement our income. There’s many reasons for this, but it’s our desire to own a larger apartment so that our daily life doesn’t feel so congested and crowded. We’d also love to share our space, host groups at our place, and have a yard for Marin to play in as she gets older. Personally, I’m just tired of constantly being on the move and would like to feel a bit more grounded with our living situation. I’d also like to spend more money on groceries [as you’ll soon see I’m getting to be pretty concerned with diet and nutrition needs] and for future children.
Those are really the three main areas that we went into this fasting journey intentionally praying about, and there’s been a lot of other things that have come from it. Like I said, I haven’t always had the best attitude about fasting and feel anxious anytime someone talks about giving up food. But, what I really didn’t expect, was how convicted I’d feel about that. I mean seriously, is *food* really *that* important to me? Should it affect my life *so* much that without it or what I want to eat I’m forced to be in a bad mood? That’s ridiculous, and that’s not what food is meant to be. So, really, this fast has forced me to really question the amount of stock I put into food – the amount I let it determine my feelings or how it can essentially become an idol? I didn’t give up anything *big*, but when I couldn’t have what I wanted when I wanted it, I was really challenged to not focus on what I was giving up rather than on God. I realize today starts Lent, and the statuses are rolling in that someone *had* to give up ____, but really, that’s not the point at all. It’s not about focusing on what you gave up at all because that’s really nothing in comparison to not only what God has done for us, but also, what we gain in Christ through fasting.
This fast has really made me question what food is. It’s a nutritious supplement that keeps the body running smoothly and sustains it physically. No, that’s not Webster’s definition, it’s mine, but it works. I really *really* do not need to be eating ____ if it’s compromising my body’s optimal function or longevity. So, I’m really, really trying to dedicate myself to eating a Paleo diet and hope to do the Whole 30 when I return from Florida. I’m actually pretty stoked about it and am hoping to save up for a Juicer to have an even more optimal diet. Yes, I realize it’s all baby steps and I’m kinda jumping onto a trendy train here, but diet matters. What we put into our bodies matters. I’m going to try to take even better care of mine in 2013 and after this fast. Or at least after I have a celebratory cannoli.